Deliberation [Edit]

Alrighty, so I'm a lot cooler than I was yesterevening. Not saying much, I know, but at least I don't want to kill things. Today, it was made painfully obvious how much of a close-minded society I live in. People kept looking at me like I should have been burned at the steak or something. Then, mein grandparents are down for the weekend. And they're ober-religios. For a hint of how extreme they are: when I started my necklace bregade, they saw it as a sign that I was worshiping satan. When I said I like to burn candles, they took that as "I'm a bunny sacrificing, child killing wiccan who worships Grenharldes, the Evil God of Death." They today they see my rainbow necklace and interrogate me about having a girlfriend. If it wasn't a public place (or at least so far from home) I would have moidered them about how biggoted they were. But I didn't want to make a scene where I was outnumbered. I really think people would have done something if I did defend my possition. So I kept quiet and said "I don't have a girlfriend"... Technically not lieing. Yay ^^; But whatever. If this comes up again at home tomarrow, I'm gonna have Mika's cell number on hand and probably want to be picked up or talked to or something. Well, I would be outwardly defing OVER half of my family, so that doesn't exactly give me browny points. Not to mention, I can really bruise all of their ego's to the point of wanting to hurt me so I'd shut up. *breathes* ... So, what's next?

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I think I may actually get online tonight. I just wonder how many would talk because I guilt tripped them and how many would talk because they *want* to talk? ... Yeah, if ANYONE thinks I guilt trip people, don't *ever* let me know that or I will cut off your nuts/some-important-female-organ and then probably throw both parts off of a building. I don't want pitty from people! *breahtes* ... So yeah, I'll try the online thing for a little while... 20$ says that I'll get about 17 "Sorry"s, 15 "Are you ok?"s, and who knows what other comments of shit. If you don't want to talk, then don't. The least I ask is that you lie and say you're busy or at least some notice that I'm not just a POS to run to when you want me here.


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My gayness is spreading knowledge. Yay for random guys flirting with me in the shop. And random, useless info; they all <3 Nightwish. If someone thinks my taste in music sux, I doubt anything past friendship would happen :-/ ... Oh well, I guess I'm just an elitist, evil, complete bitch, controlling bastard.


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Ever just close your eyes and hear a voice? ... Next tuesday at 3 am... WTF happens then? Guess I'll know then...